Our daughter was stillborn at 42 weeks--the day before my induction b/c I was overdue. I really struggled after that while ttc. Since it was a fullterm birth my cycles were crazy. I had to wait to stop bleeding, then spotting, then for ppaf. It was a daily struggle. We decided with my ob to seek intervention and opted for iui. It took us two cycles of IUI but it worked. Then the pregnancy....it was the longest 38 weeks. Since I had a full term loss I was worried the whole time. It wasn't until he was a few months old that I felt myself relax. I know what you're feeling is normal. I just don't think that after a loss you can go back to thinking everything will always be ok. I know I tried to but my second pregnancy was different. I had to really concentrate on enjoying it. We're hoping to have another baby so I'll be right there with you. I think it might be even harder after having one baby already b/c you know what you're missing.