I saw these boards and I thought I would join along for the support. I was 9 months pg in Jan with a beautiful baby boy named Grant Alexander. He was due Feb 15th... I lost him 2 1/2 weeks before my due date. Everything was going fine, a wondeful pg from the start. I went in for a check up and he had a strong heartbeat, then 2 days later he died. We didn't know what had happened, everything was perfect up until then. The ultrasound couldn't even tell either. I noticed he wasn't kicking and went in to find out that the nightmare was true. I delivered the next day. My umblicial cord was wrapped around his neck 3 times and there was a knot in the cord as well. Needless to say it was the worst day of my lfe.
My husband and I have been grieving for a while now and we finally feel like we have a handle on things. I will always hurt and there will always be pain when I think of that day...but I did get to hold him and tell him I love him and say a sad goodbye, he was 6 pounds and absolutely beautiful, he was perfect.
Anyways, we are ready......we are ready as we will ever be....I want a another child...I have a toddler and that has kept me going...he needs his mommy. But we want another child...
I will never forget Grant and no other will ever replace him,,,I know you ladies know how I feel, I know you know the pain we go through....sometimes when all is well I will just start crying...I will be driving in my car and then all of a sudden the tears just start flowing...I don't know if that will ever go away..however, my family is moving on in a healthy way,,and I will find out May 5th if we are pg once again...oh, how I hope so....The Lord is in control.
Please pray for us,,we want to be pg so badly...