Join Date: Jan 2001
Location: South of the Mason-Dixon Line
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I can't do it anymore. I hate going to work. I hate staying home (but at least I feel valuable there). The only thing keeping me from doing something rash is the fact that my son needs his mother (DH can always get another wife, but DS can only have one mother). I guess this qualifies as depression, right?
In about 2 weeks, I start up the meds again and we can try again (after 3 MCs). DH keeps telling me that I can quit my job when we have a second baby, but I've just about given up hope on that. One more miscarriage, and I'm going to quit, at least for a while. I can't handle the rollercoaster. And that will be one more count against me, because I desperately want to have more children - being unable/unwilling to do so will tear me apart.
I'm looking for another job, partly because I think I'm in a funk because I've been at this job for almost 3.5 years - longer than any other job in the past - and because I really don't think I'm going to quit working any time soon. What I really want to do is stay home and take care of my son, but right now that's not reasonable, and I know it.
I just needed to hear someone tell me I'm not losing my mind. Others of you have gone through this, I'm sure.
Thanks for listening.