at my wits end with FIL..

i'll try to get though this without crying..

today my SIL and i spent the day together.. she came over and helped me do some things around the house.. was kinda nice to have a bit of help..

Anyway.. we got to talking because dylan is kind of cranky because he's cutting another tooth, and he got his shots on tuesday.

Shelly (sil) says that ROn (fil) was in a bad mood last night. I agreed because when i picked up the boys last night Ron said nothing to me.. no hi.. no bye no kiss my @ss.. nothing. i didn't care i wanted to pick the kids up and leave. (btw~ shelly lives there with brian my bil)

she said that dylan had been cranky wednesday night. and i said yeah he had shots tuesday and hes cutting that tooth. she said yeah, Ron was pissed. I asked why. she said he came home and was bitc*ing that he always was coming home to "whiney @ss kids and crying babies"

Whiney kids? Crying babies? WTF? These are HIS grandchildren.

He has his head stuck so far up his ass he's fighting for air supply!

It really was the last straw today when Shelly told me.

She also said that Dylan had been doing a bit of whining/crying and she picked him up to see what he wanted and Ron yelled that "thats why he cries all the time.. he's spoiled" WHATEVER!!!!

He as a matter of fact does NOT get held all the time!!!!

I was just bawling today when shelly told me.. I'm going to talk to Matt tonight when he gets hom (in about 15 minutes) and if Matt doesn't say anything to Ron---- I WILL. I'm tired of Ron making me feel like my children are awful terrible, spoiled, whiney, bad kids! They aren't!!! They are FOUR years old- NORMAL.. and a 6 MONTH old teething infant that just had gotten shots the DAY BEFORE!!!!

whatever.. just whatever.. thats all i can say at this point because the only thing I want to call him is a "self righteous F-c-k-r!!"

going now.. sorry to unload

Well.. it was bad.

I just finished crying..again.

I hit 'Submit' and Matt pulled in the drive. He came in, gave me a hug and kiss, asked how my day was and I just started crying. At first he got mad that I just laid it out like that and got so upset so quikly.

Then i just started saying things I've felt for almost 5 years.. that i feel like Ron thinks i ruined matts life.. that i feel like ron doesn't even like matt, or his own wife for that matter, that ron thinks matt doesn't work hard.. that he has a sh*tty profession.. that even though he did graduate frrom college that Ron still thinks he's a loser..

lots and lots of stuff..

then i got realllly upset when i said i just wanted my kids to have grandparents because my mom is dead and that my dad is out making money the best way he knows how. and it got me upset cuz i've been missing my mom.. so i sat in the bathroom.. on the toilet seat just crying my eyeballs out.. matt realized then how upset I was.. that i just didn't spring it in my head.. that i had been thinking about htis for a very long time..

kind of feels good now that i've gotten it out..but now to face the in-laws.. and i need MIL to watch the kids this weekend cuz i have to work.. GREAT! I couldn't have kept my mouth shut for like 4 more days?!?!? of course not.. lol

No he's not whiney and cranky..

he's just an @sshole! plain and simple..


LOL can ya tell I'm trying not to hold any feelings back?