I can sympathize, Lenora.
I've had 5 miscarriages since having Joey. I have decided that I'm not giving up hope, but I'm not going to make a special effort anymore. My cycles have somewhat normalized, and I have a rough idea of when O is, but I'm not going to center my life around it anymore. It will happen when it happens.
PM me if you want to talk. I don't know what help I can be, but I'm willing to try.