Yesterday I called my dad because it was my birthday and I wanted to talk to him, no answer, so he called back later and I was not home, so I returned the phone call today. Guess what happen?
FIrst off I keep hearing my brother say apoligies to dad and be the bigger person. I did it, hard but I did it. He was so happy I did that and did say thank you but said I was out of control and I said I agree but if your wife would not of attacked my daughter I would of not attacked. I told him the fight was on me not her. He said on Five thousand dollar sax, I said you do not listen I said fifteen hundred or sixteen hundred dollar sax and we make payments, which it is paid for. Long story but that is the short of it. Any ways he never apolgies to me for the way he acted too. So I suck it up. Then he says we can move on now since you apologies.
Then he goes on to tell me he does not want me to get divorce and that I should suck up to Jimmy and tell him I will wait on him hand and foot and make things better for us and do what ever I need to do to keep this marriage together. I said that is fine but Jimmy does not love me anymore and he comes back with he did once he could again. You were mean to him and slacked off taking care of the house and Alisha and him. You can see where this is going ...self esteem is going way down and confidence is getting lost. Got off the phone called my Mom and said I need a hug and kiss, she did them over the phone. She made me feel better. Jimmy made me feel better. He does not know what goes on in our house day to day, he is not the dog in my home and see things, he does not know. One of Alisha problem was cutting and one reason, just one reason was her dad and I bickering at each other all the time, made her feel awful, she did not know what to do for us/her. We should of done this along time ago, we tried to work it out is not going to happen. Jimmy and I are good friends and I am glad of that. He is just going to have to take it. Still plan on not talking to my dad to much because all he does is shoot me down and makes me feel awful about myself. I just want a little contact with him, not a bunch like before because my nerves get shot, he tears me apart. Thanks for reading all this. I feel better now that I posted it.
FIrst off I keep hearing my brother say apoligies to dad and be the bigger person. I did it, hard but I did it. He was so happy I did that and did say thank you but said I was out of control and I said I agree but if your wife would not of attacked my daughter I would of not attacked. I told him the fight was on me not her. He said on Five thousand dollar sax, I said you do not listen I said fifteen hundred or sixteen hundred dollar sax and we make payments, which it is paid for. Long story but that is the short of it. Any ways he never apolgies to me for the way he acted too. So I suck it up. Then he says we can move on now since you apologies.
Then he goes on to tell me he does not want me to get divorce and that I should suck up to Jimmy and tell him I will wait on him hand and foot and make things better for us and do what ever I need to do to keep this marriage together. I said that is fine but Jimmy does not love me anymore and he comes back with he did once he could again. You were mean to him and slacked off taking care of the house and Alisha and him. You can see where this is going ...self esteem is going way down and confidence is getting lost. Got off the phone called my Mom and said I need a hug and kiss, she did them over the phone. She made me feel better. Jimmy made me feel better. He does not know what goes on in our house day to day, he is not the dog in my home and see things, he does not know. One of Alisha problem was cutting and one reason, just one reason was her dad and I bickering at each other all the time, made her feel awful, she did not know what to do for us/her. We should of done this along time ago, we tried to work it out is not going to happen. Jimmy and I are good friends and I am glad of that. He is just going to have to take it. Still plan on not talking to my dad to much because all he does is shoot me down and makes me feel awful about myself. I just want a little contact with him, not a bunch like before because my nerves get shot, he tears me apart. Thanks for reading all this. I feel better now that I posted it.
to your dad from me for treating you like that when you are such a sweet person! 
