With my first baby, it took us 8 months to get pregnant. I was going through depression and I only got better for a couple months after I got pregnant. Then I went down hill. I contemplated suicide when I was 7 months along. I got help and made it through. It was really serious. After Colton's birth, I really snapped out of it and have been getting better everyday. Now that we are TTC I am having struggles again. I am scared to death of TTC because I have associated it so strongly with depression. I dont know how to deal with the let-down every month in a healthy manner. My DH has promised me that this time will be different, but we fight so much. Everytime he tries to have sex, I throw a fit and find some way to start a fight so that we dont end up having sex and then I dont have to worry about getting pregnant this month. I loved being pregnant, and I really want another baby, I just dont want to go through the stress of TTC again. It hurt so bad when I wasnt pregnant month after month. How do/did you destract yourself from the waiting period?? What do you do to keep your sex-life alive and not fight over the stress? He is trying so hard and really wants to have a baby as soon as God will give us one. I dont want to keep pushing him away. 
I know how you feel. DH and I have had arguements about the "scheduled" sex. He told me it's better to not tell him if this is the time for sex. 
I hate the waiting for my period part too. This is month 9 for us TTC. It's very tough. I just decided that I would put my faith in God and he would give us a child when its time for us. I know my plans aren't always what his are for us and I just have to have faith, see my siggie for my thoughts 
good luck and you know that we are all here to listen to you no matter how you're feeling.
