Just sick and tired of it all!

I saw my mom on Wed. She said she thought she had been bitten by a bug and her arm was sore. It didn't look bad, but she said it hurt, so I told her to call her doctor. She assured me she would.
She didn't.
I saw her yesterday. The underside of her forearm from the bend of her elbow to
about 3/4 of the way down was RED, hard as a rock, and hot to the touch. I
called the doctor (against my mom's protests), and they told me to take her
to urgent care. I had Emily with me, so I convinced them to let me bring
her in. Got her there, the physician's asst. took one look at Mom's arm and
said, "Good LORD! You have (some medical term)." She explained that this is
a potentially fatal vein infection. From there, there was much debate about
whether to hospitalize her. I begged them to, that way I would know she was
getting what she needed because obviously she won't help herself or do what
they tell her to do. The PA asked Mom if she had been running a fever
and/or had had chills. Mom said no. That was a lie. She had had chills
yesterday afternoon, so I told the PA that she had chills earlier, but was HOT to
the touch. Had the nurse come in and take her temp. Nurse showed the PA the
temp, and the PA said, "Oh SH*T!" and ran out of the room. Her temp was
102.5. (A person who has cancer is instructed to call the doctor if they have a fever of 100.5 or higher.) The doctor came in and chewed her out. He was so mad at her and was APPALLED that she had been hurting, as it turns out, since at least MONDAY. She was THERE on Monday and didn't show them her arm or tell them anything.
(GRRRRR) So, he decided to have her go to the hospital last night for IV
antibiotics and blood cultures. She was there for about 3 hours. Her blood
pressure was 77/42. He said she can't stay alone because she is in such
danger (if she had let it go until Monday, as she planned, she could have
died), so instead of staying with me, her friend Jackie stayed with her last night.
She goes back to the hospital for IV fluids and IV antibiotics today at 1:30 and
again tomorrow. If Jackie isn't at her house when we finish today, she is coming home with me, and we aren't discussing it. Blood cultures should be back on Monday. On Monday she starts taking oral antibiotics 2 X a day for ten days. We go to see the
doctor on Wednesday.
What really makes me so is that she was yelling at me on the phone today and being totally hateful. I told her that I was tired of that, and that I felt she should appreciate me a little. So she started saying all this crap about how she appreciates me, totally insincerely. I told her I didn't want to hear it, and that I wanted her to ACT like she appreciated me.
My sister is all p!ssy because I didn't call the doctor on Wednesday. I told her that OUR mom is a grown woman and could and should have called the doctor herself. It's not like she was incapacitated, and I reminded my sister that I have a 3 year old CHILD at home who does in fact need me to care for her and who cannot do everything for herself. My mom chooses do to nothing for herself. There is a big difference.
So. the story is the same. Mom's sick, being hateful to me, and I have no support. It gets REALLY REALLY old.
I am going to start going with her to chemo again, at least for as long as I can.
I am not going on the girls' trip to the beach because I don't think it would be wise of me to leave next weekend given how sick my mom is now.

True, and I so wish it were that simple. I just can't go. We don't have any family here but the two of us and Kyle and his mom. Kyle has to work on Friday and Monday, so Emily would be with his mom. If my mom got sick or needed to go to the doctor or hospital, getting her there would fall to Kyle's mom. She doesn't need to juggle a 3 year old and a sick person. Yes, Kyle could leave work and come get Emily, but I see that as so frivolous for many reasons. Things are better at Delta, but not great, and I don't want him having to run out of work unless it's really necessary. My mom does have a good friend, Jackie, who is somewhat of a help, but she works M-F and then goes to the gym after work every day, so she isn't always available. Making sure Emily is taken care of is my top priority, and there's just not enough people available to us for me to be certain Emily and my mom would be okay if I weren't here.