A LOT of issues

Please pray for us.

I know I haven't been on much lately. Sorry. We've had SO much to deal with and I haven't really felt much like talking about some of it.

There have been a lot of things said and done since my cousin's death that have been really stressful. I heard about a dozen different stories about what happened. They found out last week that he was on a drug for serious kidney problems. Some of the side effects were disorientation, depression, suicidal throughts, dizziness, halucination, stomach problems, headaches, etc. (The list goes on.) He had fallen out of bed twice the week before he died. He'd had a lot of dizziness and many of the other side effects. So, they think that maybe he really didn't know what he was doing. He had not been fighting with my uncle. My uncle walked in just as the gun went off and saw everything. So, it's just been a rollercoster of news and I've been really emotional about it. Andy was the first kid I ever babysat and he was the first cousin I had that I really got involved with. DH doesn't really understand why I am taking it so personally. But then, he didn't grow up around all of his cousins or really know any of his extended family to the extent that I knew mine.

My schedule at work changed, and my pay got cut because of it. $50 a week less. It's still a good job and I love the kids. But it wasn't really what I was expecting when I got my check.

Jonathan has had numerous problems with school. Mainly on the bus and I just don't know what to do. I will go into that later in another post. But we have calls in to the principal, transportation, and special service. We've had three issues in less than two weeks. He LOVED the bus last year. No problems at school, but constant problems on the bus. It's usually the other way around. Something's not right. Or there's something they aren't telling us.

Sammy's been sick. He caught something from my babysitting kiddos.

A family friend of ours died suddenly on Monday.

DH is on trial for yet another job. Starting next week for 30 days. Probably won't go anywhere (again), but it gets him into doing something he really enjoys for at least a little while. It's more of a special project to see if they can justify creating a position for him to do nothing but this. They promised him a nice bonus at the end if it all works out. (We've heard this before, so maybe they'll actually keep their word this time.)

We had to have security people come out and activate our alarm system. It was in the house when we moved here, but we just had to have them activate it and show us how to work it. Jonathan made another escape attempt last week, so we had to get this set up so we know if he even opens a door. This is a little more complicated than I expected, so we have to retrain ourselves to log in and out every time we open a door. I know we'll get used to it, but it's going to take a while.

Oh, I'm PMS right now, too. So, that doesn't help.

There's just a lot of stress and worrying. And every time I get all upset, my asthma starts to act up. So, I need to try to do whatever I can to stay calm. Just pray for us that things will start to calm down a little bit so we can get to a "norm".